we never really realize

We never fully realize
what we’ve lost
until some time
has passed
for us to use
the future as concrete facts
and some loneliness
has last
a little.
We never fully realize
that love is what we see
in our minds
and we grasp tightly
to what we hold dear.
I never fully realized
that your hands
could give me that
warmness
of which I have been
unremarkably deprived
and your eyes
that once I haven’t loved back
I would love now.

K. .

Lifedance

A believer

A believer,
A believer stops believing
when there’s nothing left for him,
and he grows inside of him a tumor
of hopelessness and desolation.
A believer
that had stopped believing
eventually will turn back to his faith
for faith is stronger than experience.
But when an atheist cries out “God”
you know this is a paradox
born out of utter desperation
desperation that would persist,
for it needs much hopelessness to cry out
to someone you don’t believe to exist,
but that you believe is your last
and only
chance to be heard.