k.

Am I interesting or plain?
I don't know how i came up with such a question. I guess it's that i've been sitting on the coach, thinking about anything for a little while now.
I guess most people want a drama-free life. That's why maybe most people won't choose me over anybody else with a less distinctive habit of mood swings. I wish my personality was not so sombre so often, because it's so much easier not to have that sense of finality when something bad happens, as life is about constant change. Nothing, literally, nothing persists through time and it's so much easier to just be able to let go - not to let my mind linger on the past too much.
I intelectually always could understand this, but I never felt it.
Now I do.

we never really realize

We never fully realize
what we’ve lost
until some time
has passed
for us to use
the future as concrete facts
and some loneliness
has last
a little.
We never fully realize
that love is what we see
in our minds
and we grasp tightly
to what we hold dear.
I never fully realized
that your hands
could give me that
warmness
of which I have been
unremarkably deprived
and your eyes
that once I haven’t loved back
I would love now.

K. .